Announcement
Aug 19, 2012 13:11:10 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2012 13:11:10 GMT -5
Dear fellow UBSers,
Over the last few days, as I occupied myself with attempting to write this post, I found myself incapable of doing so. It wasn’t the length; I’ve written longer. It was the content. I found myself thoroughly unsatisfied with what I was writing. Sure, it would have served its purpose of progressing the storyline and moving things along, but I would not have been happy with it. So I deleted the whole of it and tried to start again. But I found myself, again, unable to write. And that was when it occurred to me that I have never truly been happy with anything that I wrote for the UBS. That’s quite a statement, I know, but it’s the truth. I have never been satisfied with a single piece of writing that I posted to the UBS or to GameFAQs.
I reflected on how I always said I would write such-and-such story in the Creative Writing section. And maybe I would start a story, maybe I’d even write it for a little while. But all of them inevitably end up the same way: unwritten and unfinished. I thought back to how I have actually never finished a single RP I’ve ever been involved in. Some of them last quite a while, true, but all of them inevitably fail in some way, shape, or form. And more often than not, the failure comes from my own dissatisfaction with the work. The original EotD was cancelled and deleted because of me. The second EotD was a mess because of me. The third EotD was cancelled and deleted because of me. The end to the original KotoR UBS was a mess because of me. Bellum will never be finished, because of me. And now, it seems, the current EotD will not be finished, because of me.
On top of this, I reflected on how many people we have lost over the recent months and years. Whether I bear the full blame or not for their departure, I am at least indirectly responsible in every single case for each and every one of them. Rain, Kupo, Rogue, Zif, Tabs, Exile, Aeon, Silent, James... there was even a time I linked people from RP/FF to the site, several years ago. But I banned them over a petty argument. I’ve done next to nothing when it comes to promoting the site. I have been completely useless in advertising, prospective new writer screenings, and even simple things like site maintenance. And, of course, I feel largely responsible for Will’s recent departure as well. From all of these things, I have decided that I am not a very good Admin. I am not a very good GM. I am not even a very good writer.
And that is why I’m withdrawing from EotD.
From this moment on, I am no longer a writer in the RP. I turn full creative control of the story back to Thunder, should he care to take up the reigns. If not, he is free to designate creative control to anyone who is willing. I forfeit ownership of all characters currently under my control, and offer them up to anyone who wishes to write for them, should any of you still wish to write. In addition to this, I will divulge any information regarding my potential plans for the future of the story, should any of you wish to know them.
Running parallel to this, I also hereby revoke all Administrative status from both of my accounts. I will keep the ‘Asuna’ account as a normal user, and I will hand the main account for the site to Praetor, who is now the sole acting Admin of the site in JS’s absence.
I will not be leaving the site altogether, but I will be significantly reducing the amount of time I spend on it. My main (perhaps only) interaction with the site for the time being will be chatting in the Cbox. As for my moderating powers there, I will cease using my main account and open a new one.
I apologize to all of you for having wasted so much of your time over the years. You are welcome to continue writing without me. I think you might find that the story doesn’t need me so much as you think it does. Especially since EotD is a far more collaborative venture than Bellum ever was. I also thank those of you who have remained with the site and the story for as long as you have. It has been very enjoyable.
In any case, that’s all I have to say. I will probably take a few days away from the site, but I’ll be back Wednesday-ish. If any of you absolutely need me for something, feel free to email be at fro619@live.com. See you Wednesday.
Over the last few days, as I occupied myself with attempting to write this post, I found myself incapable of doing so. It wasn’t the length; I’ve written longer. It was the content. I found myself thoroughly unsatisfied with what I was writing. Sure, it would have served its purpose of progressing the storyline and moving things along, but I would not have been happy with it. So I deleted the whole of it and tried to start again. But I found myself, again, unable to write. And that was when it occurred to me that I have never truly been happy with anything that I wrote for the UBS. That’s quite a statement, I know, but it’s the truth. I have never been satisfied with a single piece of writing that I posted to the UBS or to GameFAQs.
I reflected on how I always said I would write such-and-such story in the Creative Writing section. And maybe I would start a story, maybe I’d even write it for a little while. But all of them inevitably end up the same way: unwritten and unfinished. I thought back to how I have actually never finished a single RP I’ve ever been involved in. Some of them last quite a while, true, but all of them inevitably fail in some way, shape, or form. And more often than not, the failure comes from my own dissatisfaction with the work. The original EotD was cancelled and deleted because of me. The second EotD was a mess because of me. The third EotD was cancelled and deleted because of me. The end to the original KotoR UBS was a mess because of me. Bellum will never be finished, because of me. And now, it seems, the current EotD will not be finished, because of me.
On top of this, I reflected on how many people we have lost over the recent months and years. Whether I bear the full blame or not for their departure, I am at least indirectly responsible in every single case for each and every one of them. Rain, Kupo, Rogue, Zif, Tabs, Exile, Aeon, Silent, James... there was even a time I linked people from RP/FF to the site, several years ago. But I banned them over a petty argument. I’ve done next to nothing when it comes to promoting the site. I have been completely useless in advertising, prospective new writer screenings, and even simple things like site maintenance. And, of course, I feel largely responsible for Will’s recent departure as well. From all of these things, I have decided that I am not a very good Admin. I am not a very good GM. I am not even a very good writer.
And that is why I’m withdrawing from EotD.
From this moment on, I am no longer a writer in the RP. I turn full creative control of the story back to Thunder, should he care to take up the reigns. If not, he is free to designate creative control to anyone who is willing. I forfeit ownership of all characters currently under my control, and offer them up to anyone who wishes to write for them, should any of you still wish to write. In addition to this, I will divulge any information regarding my potential plans for the future of the story, should any of you wish to know them.
Running parallel to this, I also hereby revoke all Administrative status from both of my accounts. I will keep the ‘Asuna’ account as a normal user, and I will hand the main account for the site to Praetor, who is now the sole acting Admin of the site in JS’s absence.
I will not be leaving the site altogether, but I will be significantly reducing the amount of time I spend on it. My main (perhaps only) interaction with the site for the time being will be chatting in the Cbox. As for my moderating powers there, I will cease using my main account and open a new one.
I apologize to all of you for having wasted so much of your time over the years. You are welcome to continue writing without me. I think you might find that the story doesn’t need me so much as you think it does. Especially since EotD is a far more collaborative venture than Bellum ever was. I also thank those of you who have remained with the site and the story for as long as you have. It has been very enjoyable.
In any case, that’s all I have to say. I will probably take a few days away from the site, but I’ll be back Wednesday-ish. If any of you absolutely need me for something, feel free to email be at fro619@live.com. See you Wednesday.